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serpent-mom dream 8/1/09
Aug. 1st, 2009 | 01:04 pm
Today's edition of connie's weird dreams: dad knocks up a shape shifting serpent,who looked like my mom, then it got babies that had human faces on the body of a snake. when the babies tried to slither-hug on my dad's face, i thought it was eating him so i ran screaming to mom. and she's like wtf? and strangely she was ok with the serpent -woman & kids living with us.The serpent was hurt by me thinking it's evil so it left. Chinook is shot and the enemy plane tries to shoot us.I protect n carried my serpent-brother with my life as missiles were fired at us n mom even tho i thought they were evil n gross. Chinook is shot and the enemy plane tries to shoot us.I protect n carried my serpent-brother with my life as missiles were fired at us n mom even tho i thought they were evil n gross. Chinook is shot and the enemy plane tries to shoot us.I protect n carried my serpent-brother with my life as missiles were fired at us n mom even tho i thought they were evil n gross. The enemy space looking plane turns around and gets in front of me and mom and fires a missile, as the missile nears us, i wake up
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Why can't Riverside have more intelligent people?!?!?
Jul. 19th, 2008 | 09:39 pm
PMS:: 
angry
musik: Hungry Lucy- in the circle
I miss my high school. I REALLY REALLY miss the air of intelligence it radiates.
Even the people with "no hope for the future" had more intelligence/logic than some of the people at UC Riverside.
I remember the first time I went to UC Riverside. I didn't even set foot anywhere on the campus and I already felt like someday i will end up killing myself here. Acid churning in my stomach. Pressure applied throughout my body. Weight suffocating me. Throat turbulent like a maelstrom and parched like the Sahara. Heartbeats like walking through sludge.
I can remember the details so pristinely.
Argh! I can't transfer because some of my classes have to be taken again if they don't count. It's not like I can afford it either way.
But I feel my mind beginning to atrophy. It feels like I haven't used ANY part of my brain as apparent in my impaired judgment and lack of critical thinking skills.
I miss the over-soul, allegory of the cave, Brave new world, Transcendentalism, Photosynthesis, Romantics, Spanish Inquisition...
*drools* All that knowledge shoved down my brain.
Now, I don't even know what I'm learning right now. Actually, let me rephrase that, I don't even know if i AM truly learning as I should be. My mind feels like its dilapidated and crumbling to the ground. What's the point of this body if the mind is going to waste?
Even the people with "no hope for the future" had more intelligence/logic than some of the people at UC Riverside.
I remember the first time I went to UC Riverside. I didn't even set foot anywhere on the campus and I already felt like someday i will end up killing myself here. Acid churning in my stomach. Pressure applied throughout my body. Weight suffocating me. Throat turbulent like a maelstrom and parched like the Sahara. Heartbeats like walking through sludge.
I can remember the details so pristinely.
Argh! I can't transfer because some of my classes have to be taken again if they don't count. It's not like I can afford it either way.
But I feel my mind beginning to atrophy. It feels like I haven't used ANY part of my brain as apparent in my impaired judgment and lack of critical thinking skills.
I miss the over-soul, allegory of the cave, Brave new world, Transcendentalism, Photosynthesis, Romantics, Spanish Inquisition...
*drools* All that knowledge shoved down my brain.
Now, I don't even know what I'm learning right now. Actually, let me rephrase that, I don't even know if i AM truly learning as I should be. My mind feels like its dilapidated and crumbling to the ground. What's the point of this body if the mind is going to waste?
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gun control project
Feb. 15th, 2008 | 12:39 am
Mmm...I'm happy the cops came to open and search suspicious packages.
Haha, just when I was complaining about how relaxed U.S. gun laws are after columbine and such.
O gawd, my package came in at the wrong time...valentines. man that must look real bad. It was supposed to come in 10 days. i was surprised it came early o.0
Haha, just when I was complaining about how relaxed U.S. gun laws are after columbine and such.
O gawd, my package came in at the wrong time...valentines. man that must look real bad. It was supposed to come in 10 days. i was surprised it came early o.0
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firearms...is it too easy?
Jan. 29th, 2008 | 07:33 pm
[please excuse the colloquialism]
The Mosin Nagant used from 1891-1960's till it was replaced by my other favorite classic, a SVD Dragnov. Though some countries still use it, even the U.S. It's been in service for 117 years.
Anyways, I kinda wished I brought a camera to the store just like Moore did for "Bowling for Columbine" but i dont wanna violate the amendment. (pssh what kind of aspiring fimmaker am i?) The point of this is how easily accessible are arms after these tragic events?
Here is the process of getting arms after tragic events:
1st:you pick out the one you like,duh.
The first that was on display had a lock, which is good for stupid people. The 2nd one, (which is the one i picked out) came out of the box without a lock and the safety wasn't on...which makes me wonder if they check if its loaded before putting it in boxes.
2nd: fill out some boring paperwork
I had to fill out some papers about my background and where to contact me to get my package. My sister said I had to take special classes for guns and get a license or certificate to buy arms. I was surprised I didn't have to...just show up,sign, seem mentally competent and pay. There was about 10 questions about are you insane or ever mentally incompetent or an illegal alien, are YOU the one buying the gun. Basically if you never had a history of psychoness, are over 18 and a resident of Cali then u can get one. I had to do a written one and a spoken one asking the same questions. The spoken one basically asks the same questions but it is required by California law to do so. The background check takes 10 days to process. The manager copied my driver license info and address. Signed some papers that said it's a felony to sell to other people, lie that i'm going to be the owner then give it to someone or lie on the form.
3rd: costs blargh...
I have to pay a $21 background check to the Feds, $8 tax & $25 for a special Cali approved lock (which i can return btw). which is kinda dumb...cuz u can just buy it then return then kids will fuck with it. But that's just my opinion. O yea and pay for it. duh
4th: wait...
The BG check is 10 days. :(
Then I can have an actual drawing reference and something to have if my friend ever takes me to his military firing range. :( wonder if the bureau of investigations or military will ever hire me to handle their preciouses or design for them. =/
Don't you ppl think it's too easy? Is the "new" way effective?
my dad and my own analysis:
my father said it was too easy. i second that. Shouldn't it be mroe differcult since the v-tech thing?
After Columbine, Moore just paid and walked out with his rifle & went to a bank to open an account then they gave him a free shotgun. After V-tech, I filled out some paper work, paid, wait, and walk out. My dad's like how the hell does that paperwork keep crazy people from buying one? or if they suddenly snap, like this one husband he shot his whole family and his nieghbors said its impossible cuz he loved his kids and he was always happy.
Should u.s. be as tough as japan on gun laws where its so hard to get a gun, there's few gun deaths, but then again there's a huge suicide rate. But then again, Canada is almost as easy as u.s. when it comes to buying a gun and yet deaths are rare if any.
Maybe it's true that people kill people, not guns? or maybe all americans are just screwy in the head.
p.s. I'll agree with my friend. If u think they are doing great job on the gun control, think of it this way....Connie just brought one. Have a nice day! ^-^
The Mosin Nagant used from 1891-1960's till it was replaced by my other favorite classic, a SVD Dragnov. Though some countries still use it, even the U.S. It's been in service for 117 years.
Anyways, I kinda wished I brought a camera to the store just like Moore did for "Bowling for Columbine" but i dont wanna violate the amendment. (pssh what kind of aspiring fimmaker am i?) The point of this is how easily accessible are arms after these tragic events?
Here is the process of getting arms after tragic events:
1st:you pick out the one you like,duh.
The first that was on display had a lock, which is good for stupid people. The 2nd one, (which is the one i picked out) came out of the box without a lock and the safety wasn't on...which makes me wonder if they check if its loaded before putting it in boxes.
2nd: fill out some boring paperwork
I had to fill out some papers about my background and where to contact me to get my package. My sister said I had to take special classes for guns and get a license or certificate to buy arms. I was surprised I didn't have to...just show up,sign, seem mentally competent and pay. There was about 10 questions about are you insane or ever mentally incompetent or an illegal alien, are YOU the one buying the gun. Basically if you never had a history of psychoness, are over 18 and a resident of Cali then u can get one. I had to do a written one and a spoken one asking the same questions. The spoken one basically asks the same questions but it is required by California law to do so. The background check takes 10 days to process. The manager copied my driver license info and address. Signed some papers that said it's a felony to sell to other people, lie that i'm going to be the owner then give it to someone or lie on the form.
3rd: costs blargh...
I have to pay a $21 background check to the Feds, $8 tax & $25 for a special Cali approved lock (which i can return btw). which is kinda dumb...cuz u can just buy it then return then kids will fuck with it. But that's just my opinion. O yea and pay for it. duh
4th: wait...
The BG check is 10 days. :(
Then I can have an actual drawing reference and something to have if my friend ever takes me to his military firing range. :( wonder if the bureau of investigations or military will ever hire me to handle their preciouses or design for them. =/
Don't you ppl think it's too easy? Is the "new" way effective?
my dad and my own analysis:
my father said it was too easy. i second that. Shouldn't it be mroe differcult since the v-tech thing?
After Columbine, Moore just paid and walked out with his rifle & went to a bank to open an account then they gave him a free shotgun. After V-tech, I filled out some paper work, paid, wait, and walk out. My dad's like how the hell does that paperwork keep crazy people from buying one? or if they suddenly snap, like this one husband he shot his whole family and his nieghbors said its impossible cuz he loved his kids and he was always happy.
Should u.s. be as tough as japan on gun laws where its so hard to get a gun, there's few gun deaths, but then again there's a huge suicide rate. But then again, Canada is almost as easy as u.s. when it comes to buying a gun and yet deaths are rare if any.
Maybe it's true that people kill people, not guns? or maybe all americans are just screwy in the head.
p.s. I'll agree with my friend. If u think they are doing great job on the gun control, think of it this way....Connie just brought one. Have a nice day! ^-^
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UC students are dip$hi+
May. 26th, 2007 | 10:12 pm
location: sis house >.>
PMS:: 
constipated kitty
musik: Linkin Park......gah! it's so emo
ok soooo
The first fire I was talking about earlier, they found out it was accidental and it is an electrical fire.
I have a new roommate cuz she had to relocate since her room is right NEXT to the lounge fire.
She needs to pray to Buddha or something cuz none of her things got burned or melted but the people farthest from the fire actually had their laptops melted or something.
Heres a pic taken by one of the B3W hallmates
there were 2 fires this Monday
one at 3:30, (the same time as the BIG fire) might I add....
gah!!! my new roommate was still traumatized from the first fire that was literally right next to her. This time it was an idiot that lit cardboard boxes in the E wing (I'm in D) and it started to burned the entrance to the emergency staircase....
real fucking funny right?
well...if me and my roommate ever finds the idiot that did it we're gonna lynch that mofo :D
then there was one at around....10 pm or 11?
well...an idiot set the wall decorations on fire so we all have to take off our nametags and decorations on our door and our theme hall decorations...
The first fire I was talking about earlier, they found out it was accidental and it is an electrical fire.
I have a new roommate cuz she had to relocate since her room is right NEXT to the lounge fire.
She needs to pray to Buddha or something cuz none of her things got burned or melted but the people farthest from the fire actually had their laptops melted or something.
Heres a pic taken by one of the B3W hallmates
there were 2 fires this Monday
one at 3:30, (the same time as the BIG fire) might I add....
gah!!! my new roommate was still traumatized from the first fire that was literally right next to her. This time it was an idiot that lit cardboard boxes in the E wing (I'm in D) and it started to burned the entrance to the emergency staircase....
real fucking funny right?
well...if me and my roommate ever finds the idiot that did it we're gonna lynch that mofo :D
then there was one at around....10 pm or 11?
well...an idiot set the wall decorations on fire so we all have to take off our nametags and decorations on our door and our theme hall decorations...
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near death experience
May. 17th, 2007 | 08:24 am
PMS:: 
ecstatic
musik: classical or something
Sorry for the profanity but i just got back to my room...
OMFG!!!!
you know what, the old hall i used to live in....well technically it was new since it was remodeled....
but anyways,...it BURNED....my former room is burnt completely...it's alll black
I am soooo fucking glad that my 1st roommate was a douchebag and made me move out...otherwise all my stuff be burnt or I'd be dead...
I started telling my hallmates "o shit!! there's a fucking fire!! omg...omg...omg...im gonna try to wake the RA and PC"
i almost pissed myself when i saw it growing
the fire alarm went off really late...like after i started knocking...so people started to take everyone's knocks seriously
I live across from the fire so I was safe and we didn't get water damage or anything
the fire marshals are currently investigating
shit....i'm so glad i moved out of my first hall....im so glad i listened to my parents to tell me to move out....i needa thank my 1st roommate for being such a douche...she saved my life
so if someone's being a douche to you, thank them....they probably saved your life but you just don't know it
GODDAMMIT I NEED A HUG!!!!!! sorry im an attention whore....
OMFG!!!!
you know what, the old hall i used to live in....well technically it was new since it was remodeled....
but anyways,...it BURNED....my former room is burnt completely...it's alll black
I am soooo fucking glad that my 1st roommate was a douchebag and made me move out...otherwise all my stuff be burnt or I'd be dead...
I started telling my hallmates "o shit!! there's a fucking fire!! omg...omg...omg...im gonna try to wake the RA and PC"
i almost pissed myself when i saw it growing
the fire alarm went off really late...like after i started knocking...so people started to take everyone's knocks seriously
I live across from the fire so I was safe and we didn't get water damage or anything
the fire marshals are currently investigating
shit....i'm so glad i moved out of my first hall....im so glad i listened to my parents to tell me to move out....i needa thank my 1st roommate for being such a douche...she saved my life
so if someone's being a douche to you, thank them....they probably saved your life but you just don't know it
GODDAMMIT I NEED A HUG!!!!!! sorry im an attention whore....
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adam toth's story....awesome...*shudders*
May. 16th, 2007 | 10:50 pm
PMS:: amused
musik: System Syn
teh con is shuddering...must be really disturbing
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they grow up so fast....
Apr. 30th, 2007 | 02:42 am
today zach's rambling about having a future together if i preferred to travel the world to see where to live where we are happy together or just have a stable place to raise our family...
i just started crying...and told him "i can't even see my own boyfriend"
in his calmest voice i have ever heard...something that was unlike his usual, emotional self...he told me "everything will work out, everything is ok, we have always been through things like this and end up being ok...the worst thing that happens is that I can't talk to u for long periods of time...and i'm sorry for that. but everything will work out"
this time i didn't question him...
i just started crying...and told him "i can't even see my own boyfriend"
in his calmest voice i have ever heard...something that was unlike his usual, emotional self...he told me "everything will work out, everything is ok, we have always been through things like this and end up being ok...the worst thing that happens is that I can't talk to u for long periods of time...and i'm sorry for that. but everything will work out"
this time i didn't question him...
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today's news...red eyed bunnies...are they creepy or not?
Apr. 12th, 2007 | 11:28 pm
satanicengel: its was so fucking creepy
paris matic: one of the mommies has red eyes...
paris matic: :\
satanicengel: i think kay was with me
satanicengel: or u....
paris matic: WTF dude if you can catch the bunnies........i swear you can take all of them if you can get them
paris matic: i cant catch them, its too hard..
satanicengel: lol
satanicengel: my mom gave carrots to one once
paris matic: YEA!?
paris matic: awwwwww
satanicengel: oooo it was my mom that saw the red eyed bunny
paris matic: we'll give one bunny to u
paris matic: and one bunny to amanda
paris matic: !!!!!!!omg!
satanicengel: LOL
paris matic: she will love it
paris matic: nooooo
paris matic: i'm serious
paris matic: she can chase the lil baby bunny
satanicengel: i was creeped out by it
paris matic: watch amanda the panda run!
paris matic: LOL!!! PUSSY!
satanicengel: LOL
satanicengel: WTF?
satanicengel: whered that come from?
satanicengel: wow im creeped out by a red eyed evil bunny and my mom wanted to keep it
paris matic: ahahah
paris matic: yeah dude
satanicengel: how pathethic am i
paris matic: i'll give one to your mom
paris matic: and i'll give one to you
paris matic: and one to amanda
paris matic: amanda will run around chasing the baby rabbit!!! ohh sooo cuuteeeeeeeee
paris matic: omggggggggggggggg
paris matic: she'll be like
paris matic: hahahahaha aunty connie is too scared
paris matic: red eyes
satanicengel: lol
paris matic: so you can handle demons and satanic shit
paris matic: but youre afraid of a damn bunny's red eyes
satanicengel: lol
paris matic: connie what the fuck
paris matic: Lol
paris matic: thats hilarious to me
satanicengel: and my mom loves it
satanicengel: lol
paris matic: LOL!
paris matic: if i gave the bunny to your mom
paris matic: she might take care of it
paris matic: and make its red eyes glow
satanicengel: ishould put this in my lj but im too lazy
paris matic: "LOOK CONNIE!! THEYRE GLOWING"
paris matic: aahahahhaha
paris matic: whatevers dude, its your lj...
satanicengel: me:"WAAAAHHHH!!! mommy scary!!! keep it away!!! it's destroying my gothiness !!!"
paris matic: ahahah!
paris matic: THIS SHIT IS TOO WHITE AND FLUFFY!
paris matic: it needs more black!
paris matic: .... and ....
paris matic: DEMONIC~!
paris matic: one of the mommies has red eyes...
paris matic: :\
satanicengel: i think kay was with me
satanicengel: or u....
paris matic: WTF dude if you can catch the bunnies........i swear you can take all of them if you can get them
paris matic: i cant catch them, its too hard..
satanicengel: lol
satanicengel: my mom gave carrots to one once
paris matic: YEA!?
paris matic: awwwwww
satanicengel: oooo it was my mom that saw the red eyed bunny
paris matic: we'll give one bunny to u
paris matic: and one bunny to amanda
paris matic: !!!!!!!omg!
satanicengel: LOL
paris matic: she will love it
paris matic: nooooo
paris matic: i'm serious
paris matic: she can chase the lil baby bunny
satanicengel: i was creeped out by it
paris matic: watch amanda the panda run!
paris matic: LOL!!! PUSSY!
satanicengel: LOL
satanicengel: WTF?
satanicengel: whered that come from?
satanicengel: wow im creeped out by a red eyed evil bunny and my mom wanted to keep it
paris matic: ahahah
paris matic: yeah dude
satanicengel: how pathethic am i
paris matic: i'll give one to your mom
paris matic: and i'll give one to you
paris matic: and one to amanda
paris matic: amanda will run around chasing the baby rabbit!!! ohh sooo cuuteeeeeeeee
paris matic: omggggggggggggggg
paris matic: she'll be like
paris matic: hahahahaha aunty connie is too scared
paris matic: red eyes
satanicengel: lol
paris matic: so you can handle demons and satanic shit
paris matic: but youre afraid of a damn bunny's red eyes
satanicengel: lol
paris matic: connie what the fuck
paris matic: Lol
paris matic: thats hilarious to me
satanicengel: and my mom loves it
satanicengel: lol
paris matic: LOL!
paris matic: if i gave the bunny to your mom
paris matic: she might take care of it
paris matic: and make its red eyes glow
satanicengel: ishould put this in my lj but im too lazy
paris matic: "LOOK CONNIE!! THEYRE GLOWING"
paris matic: aahahahhaha
paris matic: whatevers dude, its your lj...
satanicengel: me:"WAAAAHHHH!!! mommy scary!!! keep it away!!! it's destroying my gothiness !!!"
paris matic: ahahah!
paris matic: THIS SHIT IS TOO WHITE AND FLUFFY!
paris matic: it needs more black!
paris matic: .... and ....
paris matic: DEMONIC~!
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dora is an illegal immigrant
Apr. 11th, 2007 | 12:27 am
location: dorm
PMS:: 
accomplished
musik: kagrra
since i write nothing but emo stuff
here's some facts about dora the explorer that i found on a facebook group called "dora the explorer is soo an illegal immigrant"
http://ucr.facebook.com/group.php?gid=2
Ok, so here's the deal... If you need the explanations they're all around you...
1) She speaks spanish... she speaks spanish perfectly... what is she like...5? Her backpack even speaks spanish perfectly!
2) That backpack of hers has EVERYTHING in it! And we're talking everything! Life support, water/food, clothing for any weather, ropes, grappling hooks, shoes.... i mean c'mon!
3) She's carrying a freaking ZOO with her! I mean, she has a monkey, an band of insects, a bajillion other animals! Really! What kind of legal immigrant has that many pets!?
4) She's always on an "adventure" to transport a "package" to some destination and is always being stalked by a person trying to take that package... i mean... really, Swiper is so obviously some sort of border patrol person trying to collect evidence of Dora's entire narcotics trafficking buisness
The evidence is so obvious and around you guys! And they're even poisoning our little children with them... Who wants our toddlers to grow up knowing spanish before english?! Even if it's the USA...
Contact InfoWebsite:
http://nickjr.co.uk/shows/dora/index.as
Office:
© Andrew Yu (please site the gook creator when outsourcing)
here's some facts about dora the explorer that i found on a facebook group called "dora the explorer is soo an illegal immigrant"
http://ucr.facebook.com/group.php?gid=2
Ok, so here's the deal... If you need the explanations they're all around you...
1) She speaks spanish... she speaks spanish perfectly... what is she like...5? Her backpack even speaks spanish perfectly!
2) That backpack of hers has EVERYTHING in it! And we're talking everything! Life support, water/food, clothing for any weather, ropes, grappling hooks, shoes.... i mean c'mon!
3) She's carrying a freaking ZOO with her! I mean, she has a monkey, an band of insects, a bajillion other animals! Really! What kind of legal immigrant has that many pets!?
4) She's always on an "adventure" to transport a "package" to some destination and is always being stalked by a person trying to take that package... i mean... really, Swiper is so obviously some sort of border patrol person trying to collect evidence of Dora's entire narcotics trafficking buisness
The evidence is so obvious and around you guys! And they're even poisoning our little children with them... Who wants our toddlers to grow up knowing spanish before english?! Even if it's the USA...
Contact InfoWebsite:
http://nickjr.co.uk/shows/dora/index.as
Office:
© Andrew Yu (please site the gook creator when outsourcing)
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using the house as collateral
Mar. 24th, 2007 | 12:21 am
My family started getting along until everyone started fighting over the jojo shit...
fuck i hate jojo so fucking much...in the 1st time in 30 years that my family started getting along a dumb dipshit ruins it all...i need a good revenge and ruin his life
I think my dad's running away....
My dad said to sign a paper for a "credit card."
But my dad told my sis to sign a paper that said "loan" at the top and "short form deed of trust"and a paper that said "open end credit agreement."
What does a deed of trust have to do with credit cards?
it said total credit commitment of $100,000.
i took the papers to bank of America...
it meant that he is using our house as a collateral/security for his $100,000 loan...if he doesn't pay it, then my sister will have to and if she doesn't then I won't have a house to live in.
i know my dad doesn't have the money to pay that back and my sister for sure she wouldn't and our house isn't worth a shit since it's broken, has termites, rotten wood, moldy roof, broken and leaky pipes. No one would want it, even if it were free. No wonder my dad never wanted to fix the house, he's been planning this all along. just when i got closer to him...i guess he never wanted to be a father...
The clerk lady,Christine said it looks like its been authorized already to give him the OK for borrowing against the house and i needa check to see if he already borrowed money from the bank by forgery, if he did then i can sue him...
every action has its consequence...lucifer wills it
and this will be his...
fuck i hate jojo so fucking much...in the 1st time in 30 years that my family started getting along a dumb dipshit ruins it all...i need a good revenge and ruin his life
I think my dad's running away....
My dad said to sign a paper for a "credit card."
But my dad told my sis to sign a paper that said "loan" at the top and "short form deed of trust"and a paper that said "open end credit agreement."
What does a deed of trust have to do with credit cards?
it said total credit commitment of $100,000.
i took the papers to bank of America...
it meant that he is using our house as a collateral/security for his $100,000 loan...if he doesn't pay it, then my sister will have to and if she doesn't then I won't have a house to live in.
i know my dad doesn't have the money to pay that back and my sister for sure she wouldn't and our house isn't worth a shit since it's broken, has termites, rotten wood, moldy roof, broken and leaky pipes. No one would want it, even if it were free. No wonder my dad never wanted to fix the house, he's been planning this all along. just when i got closer to him...i guess he never wanted to be a father...
The clerk lady,Christine said it looks like its been authorized already to give him the OK for borrowing against the house and i needa check to see if he already borrowed money from the bank by forgery, if he did then i can sue him...
every action has its consequence...lucifer wills it
and this will be his...
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University....hmm...meh...
Jan. 7th, 2007 | 09:06 pm
Well, i got rid of the crazy homophobic closet lesbian roommate,got a job, got some cool classes.
Gah, getting a job in college is not worth it.
It takes to much of your time and you don't get a lot of money.I fucked up my health which costs $200, which doesn't include all the lunches I missed for work, and my health's still fucking up. All i made was a lousy $300...
Right before finals, I had straight A's. Then, after finals I got straight C's. Then i cried and be emo....joy.
It's fucking bullshit how much emphasis they put into finals. Just come on the last day, take the test then pass, yea...in a university you don't need to work hard or go to class...great fucking lesson for all students. But then again life is like that...it doesn't matter how hard you work as long as you seem like you did something.
Gah, getting a job in college is not worth it.
It takes to much of your time and you don't get a lot of money.I fucked up my health which costs $200, which doesn't include all the lunches I missed for work, and my health's still fucking up. All i made was a lousy $300...
Right before finals, I had straight A's. Then, after finals I got straight C's. Then i cried and be emo....joy.
It's fucking bullshit how much emphasis they put into finals. Just come on the last day, take the test then pass, yea...in a university you don't need to work hard or go to class...great fucking lesson for all students. But then again life is like that...it doesn't matter how hard you work as long as you seem like you did something.
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Fu*k u apples...fu*k u in the a$$ very much
Dec. 18th, 2006 | 03:06 am
Man...thank god i bought this piece of shit from Art Center..my dad lost the reciept...joy
but they have it on record...or so they say
argh...fucking macbook pro for this goddamn price I could've bought a nice alienware laptop that will render faster and most likely crash LESS
My Macbook Pro "the best laptop in the world", crashed 5 GODDAMN times in one FUCKING DAY!!!
W..T..F...It's supposed to be dual core for fuck's sake!! crashed right on goddamn finals week!!!
useless waste of fucking $2,500...argh why the hell did i buy insurance...aint no amount of insurance gonna save it from my wrath...
jeez!!! my 6 year old PC crashes LESS and handles MORE, it only crashes like... once or twice a year!!! and it's a goddamn solo core processer!!!
I can't freaking believe my 6 year old computer renders 3-D models faster!! WTF?!?
so yea...i bought a P.C.
argh...i should've listened to lil zachy...that man's always right...i hate it sometimes ._.+
it contributes to his negetive 100 ego >.> ....i should've bought a P.C.
but they have it on record...or so they say
argh...fucking macbook pro for this goddamn price I could've bought a nice alienware laptop that will render faster and most likely crash LESS
My Macbook Pro "the best laptop in the world", crashed 5 GODDAMN times in one FUCKING DAY!!!
W..T..F...It's supposed to be dual core for fuck's sake!! crashed right on goddamn finals week!!!
useless waste of fucking $2,500...argh why the hell did i buy insurance...aint no amount of insurance gonna save it from my wrath...
jeez!!! my 6 year old PC crashes LESS and handles MORE, it only crashes like... once or twice a year!!! and it's a goddamn solo core processer!!!
I can't freaking believe my 6 year old computer renders 3-D models faster!! WTF?!?
so yea...i bought a P.C.
argh...i should've listened to lil zachy...that man's always right...i hate it sometimes ._.+
it contributes to his negetive 100 ego >.> ....i should've bought a P.C.
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b-day pics
Nov. 14th, 2006 | 01:39 am
my b-day pics
of amanda is a panda
http://ucr.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2
me....
http://ucr.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2
ill add more later...im lazy...
of amanda is a panda
http://ucr.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2
me....
http://ucr.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2
ill add more later...im lazy...
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Nov. 5th, 2006 | 06:44 am
Today i went to eat sushi w/ kay and paris. <3
fucking kay woke up when i called her....i think paris did too.....whorebags...
james probably went to have sex with his mom or something...he still hasnt told me why...
I'm back home for my b-day and my niece (she's barely 1) knows how to walk....well actually it's more like running......
I'm so proud of that kid...she learned to run before she can crawl
and she knows how to flush the toilet unlike some people *cough*batman.hall*cough*
AWwwww!!! She started dancing at the resturant. Lil' Amanda did a headbanger thing then moved her hips around. hehehe!! Cute!! ^-^
Then, she ate some of my chocolate dessert and she had 2 spoons in each hand licking the chocolate clean and dirtying her mom's clothes...super kawaii!!
I got some knives <3....if you guys need knives for those night classes or walking through the "rape trail" as Ranbir nicely puts it.
fucking kay woke up when i called her....i think paris did too.....whorebags...
james probably went to have sex with his mom or something...he still hasnt told me why...
I'm back home for my b-day and my niece (she's barely 1) knows how to walk....well actually it's more like running......
I'm so proud of that kid...she learned to run before she can crawl
and she knows how to flush the toilet unlike some people *cough*batman.hall*cough*
AWwwww!!! She started dancing at the resturant. Lil' Amanda did a headbanger thing then moved her hips around. hehehe!! Cute!! ^-^
Then, she ate some of my chocolate dessert and she had 2 spoons in each hand licking the chocolate clean and dirtying her mom's clothes...super kawaii!!
I got some knives <3....if you guys need knives for those night classes or walking through the "rape trail" as Ranbir nicely puts it.
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fk you
Oct. 29th, 2006 | 02:40 am
PMS:: crappy
musik: www.biodustial.com
I got into an argument with my mom last week and didn't want to come back this week. I am so fucking behind in my classes and i have midterms next week and some projects. But, i came back this weekend for my friend, Carmella who came from 8 hours away. I called her and asked if she wanted to go out today before she went to Knotts. "I'll call you tommorrow" she said. Yea right you dumb bitch. I woke up too late and found out she never called at all.
Fuck this bitch, fuck them all!!! If you're all gonna stand me up, then fuck you!
Then me and my mom got into another argument about my job. She told me to quit and concentrate on school. I'd fucking quit if you'd stop calling me a useless daughter you fucking fucktard. She always calls me useless....i'd thought she'd be happy if i stop being useless, instead she just yells at me...I'm only getting a job so i'd stop using ur fucking money fucktarded bitch. She said she wouldn't pay for my school if i went to an art school cuz she hates art. She thinks i'll stand living with this fucking bitch when i go to art center...Ha! fuck you mom.
So i got a job and im going to get 2 jobs in the summer if i have to just to get money for school. Today, she said she would support me w/ money for school. Yea right u fuckinglying bitch. Well the lesson here is....Parents love having their children be useless freeloading leeches for the rest of their natural life, so don't get a job.
I got into another fight with my mom again. She asked my sis what happened in New York when i fell. Tony,sis's husband, told Angie who then told my mom that i tried to jump over a fence so i deserved breaking my goddamn skull. My mom yelled at me and said i deserved it and i should be sorry to her. well to clear things up, this is what happened last week, I told my mom that my sis was telling her on the phone that i fell and when i got back to L.A. my mom didn't do anything so i told her she didn't care about me. Apparently, my sis was pretending to call my mom when she told her that i tripped.My mom called me a liar and i said its not my fault if she was pretending to tell mom. I don't see why i should apoligize to my sis or my mom if my sis is the one lying. mom said she really cared about me and always did. I wanted to see if she was right, see if she really cared...i got a kinfe and started cutting up my arm in her face. The more she talked, the more frantic i slit myself. She kept staring as blood comes out, she leaves. "Liar", i thought to myself..."you don't care...all u care about are the people that abuse u the most....u enjoy the abuse...so don't complain u useless shit for brains bitch." Eventually my dad comes in and stops me
Then my mom went on a fucking sob story bout her fucking life. the fuck do i care if ur suicide attempt didn't work or that the doctor told u to abort me otherwise u'll die from high blood pressure. you probably should've tried harder or don't fuck my dad if u wanted me to die so badly dumb shit. Then she says what a great fucking mom she is. Oooo!! What's that mother? It's my fault for enticing and seducing a 70 year old Catholic asshole to fuck a 5 year old chinese girl with my seductive figure? It's also MY fault his arm was wrapped around my throat and the fact that he knows some gangsters and can hire them to kill me if i told anyone. o? what's this? that's MY fault too? O! and it's MY fault for telling the police that's harming other children? O dearest me, mother! I am a spawn of satan, o jesus! i've bought about the apopocalpse and wounded your soul because a pedophile touched ur daughter and other children and threatened to kill them if they dont touch him. O dearest me!! You're right mother! I should kill myself now! or shove myself up someone else's vagina!
O wow mother, i should ALSO be happy because my boyfriend's homeless too? I should also be happy because i rejected him when he asked for my help because u like listening to ur other daughter?
Fuck this shit, I'm not coming home for my B-day. I'm sick of all this shit. Everytime i come home, i'm never happy and they are never happy. we all yell at each other...fuck this
Fuck this bitch, fuck them all!!! If you're all gonna stand me up, then fuck you!
Then me and my mom got into another argument about my job. She told me to quit and concentrate on school. I'd fucking quit if you'd stop calling me a useless daughter you fucking fucktard. She always calls me useless....i'd thought she'd be happy if i stop being useless, instead she just yells at me...I'm only getting a job so i'd stop using ur fucking money fucktarded bitch. She said she wouldn't pay for my school if i went to an art school cuz she hates art. She thinks i'll stand living with this fucking bitch when i go to art center...Ha! fuck you mom.
So i got a job and im going to get 2 jobs in the summer if i have to just to get money for school. Today, she said she would support me w/ money for school. Yea right u fuckinglying bitch. Well the lesson here is....Parents love having their children be useless freeloading leeches for the rest of their natural life, so don't get a job.
I got into another fight with my mom again. She asked my sis what happened in New York when i fell. Tony,sis's husband, told Angie who then told my mom that i tried to jump over a fence so i deserved breaking my goddamn skull. My mom yelled at me and said i deserved it and i should be sorry to her. well to clear things up, this is what happened last week, I told my mom that my sis was telling her on the phone that i fell and when i got back to L.A. my mom didn't do anything so i told her she didn't care about me. Apparently, my sis was pretending to call my mom when she told her that i tripped.My mom called me a liar and i said its not my fault if she was pretending to tell mom. I don't see why i should apoligize to my sis or my mom if my sis is the one lying. mom said she really cared about me and always did. I wanted to see if she was right, see if she really cared...i got a kinfe and started cutting up my arm in her face. The more she talked, the more frantic i slit myself. She kept staring as blood comes out, she leaves. "Liar", i thought to myself..."you don't care...all u care about are the people that abuse u the most....u enjoy the abuse...so don't complain u useless shit for brains bitch." Eventually my dad comes in and stops me
Then my mom went on a fucking sob story bout her fucking life. the fuck do i care if ur suicide attempt didn't work or that the doctor told u to abort me otherwise u'll die from high blood pressure. you probably should've tried harder or don't fuck my dad if u wanted me to die so badly dumb shit. Then she says what a great fucking mom she is. Oooo!! What's that mother? It's my fault for enticing and seducing a 70 year old Catholic asshole to fuck a 5 year old chinese girl with my seductive figure? It's also MY fault his arm was wrapped around my throat and the fact that he knows some gangsters and can hire them to kill me if i told anyone. o? what's this? that's MY fault too? O! and it's MY fault for telling the police that's harming other children? O dearest me, mother! I am a spawn of satan, o jesus! i've bought about the apopocalpse and wounded your soul because a pedophile touched ur daughter and other children and threatened to kill them if they dont touch him. O dearest me!! You're right mother! I should kill myself now! or shove myself up someone else's vagina!
O wow mother, i should ALSO be happy because my boyfriend's homeless too? I should also be happy because i rejected him when he asked for my help because u like listening to ur other daughter?
Fuck this shit, I'm not coming home for my B-day. I'm sick of all this shit. Everytime i come home, i'm never happy and they are never happy. we all yell at each other...fuck this
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job!!!WHEEE!!!!!!
Oct. 12th, 2006 | 11:22 pm
location: Aberdeen-Inverness dorm
PMS:: 
artistic
I'm an adult now...hehhee *dies from exhuastion*
well i was working at mama mia's and bonzai bowl for 3 weeks then i quit cuz well...i dont like getting paid below minimum wage for a shit load of work.
I'm working so fast even the cashier couldn't keep up or the salad pppl....or dishboy...actually everyone couldn't keep up with me...but the fucking supervisors kept telling me to go faster...WTF?!?!
aw well i quit it already and i got a job as a video production assistant. WHEEE fun!!! i get to drive the go cart someday and run over students..actually my boss almost did that today....hehehe
man im so tired....i needa learn time management...im scared of midterms
midterms are coming up.....WTF?? i just got here!!!
ah yes i changed roomates and now i dorm with my friend Katrina...mehehehe
but i miss my old hallmates....they were cool, it was only my roomate that was a bitch...
well i was working at mama mia's and bonzai bowl for 3 weeks then i quit cuz well...i dont like getting paid below minimum wage for a shit load of work.
I'm working so fast even the cashier couldn't keep up or the salad pppl....or dishboy...actually everyone couldn't keep up with me...but the fucking supervisors kept telling me to go faster...WTF?!?!
aw well i quit it already and i got a job as a video production assistant. WHEEE fun!!! i get to drive the go cart someday and run over students..actually my boss almost did that today....hehehe
man im so tired....i needa learn time management...im scared of midterms
midterms are coming up.....WTF?? i just got here!!!
ah yes i changed roomates and now i dorm with my friend Katrina...mehehehe
but i miss my old hallmates....they were cool, it was only my roomate that was a bitch...
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friends....who needs them....
Sep. 4th, 2006 | 12:13 am
location: in ur mom's womb sucking her placenta
PMS:: irate
musik: "Divide"-assemblage 23
hmm yesterday my sis was telling my mom how i never had real friends and kept rubbing it in my face.....it's pretty fucking true....
She's like ooo she's sooo popular and she has friends that stayed with her no matter what and she kept all of them for more than a year and i can't keep mines for more than a year. "Connie doesn't have any best friends or at least any that she can keep. In her old school no one wants to be her friend cause she was the only chinese in the whole school and all the mexican kids hate her race. Now, even at Marshall she cant even make one decent friend...ALL my high school friends are STILL friends with me, except for the druggies."
She's right...I still don't know the definition of what a friend is. All the "friends" in my life had to go away to another school, using me for homework,just plain use me or hate me cuz i'm "annoying."
All i ever learned from "friendship" is hate and the pure viciousness and all the atrocities humans can commit to another human being. They didn't want to associate with me because of my ethnicity but race was something i couldn't change therefore i ended up hating myself.I never wanted to go to school or go up to someone and "make a friend." I knew that once i step over that line...I'll be subjected to their hate.
Sometimes I wonder..if me acting like an annoying idiot is a sort of defense mechanism,
just to push away people just because i don't want to be hurt or I miss the lonliness...
So what is friendship? Just malice and misery...
She really knows how to make me feel like shit. Just like when i was little, I cried myself to sleep and for the same reasons. I'll never grow up and I'll never learn...
In the end, there's no one left to blame but yourself...
She's like ooo she's sooo popular and she has friends that stayed with her no matter what and she kept all of them for more than a year and i can't keep mines for more than a year. "Connie doesn't have any best friends or at least any that she can keep. In her old school no one wants to be her friend cause she was the only chinese in the whole school and all the mexican kids hate her race. Now, even at Marshall she cant even make one decent friend...ALL my high school friends are STILL friends with me, except for the druggies."
She's right...I still don't know the definition of what a friend is. All the "friends" in my life had to go away to another school, using me for homework,just plain use me or hate me cuz i'm "annoying."
All i ever learned from "friendship" is hate and the pure viciousness and all the atrocities humans can commit to another human being. They didn't want to associate with me because of my ethnicity but race was something i couldn't change therefore i ended up hating myself.I never wanted to go to school or go up to someone and "make a friend." I knew that once i step over that line...I'll be subjected to their hate.
Sometimes I wonder..if me acting like an annoying idiot is a sort of defense mechanism,
just to push away people just because i don't want to be hurt or I miss the lonliness...
So what is friendship? Just malice and misery...
She really knows how to make me feel like shit. Just like when i was little, I cried myself to sleep and for the same reasons. I'll never grow up and I'll never learn...
In the end, there's no one left to blame but yourself...